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Despair.nuWhere’s the Light? 
- posted on Thursday, February 23, 2006 @ 11:01 am by Aileen
- tagged with drama
- filed under Relationships with {0} comments
I could hardly recall when I last spoke about my family, little more mention the word. It is because I never felt that I ever had one in the past. Our family is not "broken" physically but it is broken within.
My family is facing dark times at present. Who would have guessed that I’d ever acknowledge belonging to one & during these trying times to boot.
My grandfather on my mother’s side just died, & there are suspicions that it was by my uncle’s hand. On the instance of my grandfather’s death, my uncle would be named administrator of all their properties provided that he holds legal proof of his death. My mom holds my grandfather’s death certificate & I’m giving her all my support just so she won’t give in to his threats. Showing some support is difficult because Mom & I were never close. But ties become somewhat snug when trouble approaches.
My sister is avoiding me. I have not seen her for almost a month despite the fact that she & I share the same address. There must be a reason why she doesn’t want me to see her & I doubt that it’s something to rejoice about when I find out what it actually is.
Mom’s very disappointed with dad because he does not make his support / presence more obvious now that she is in a very difficult situation. Last night ,I talked to my dad & told him that now is one of those moments when he has to live up to his role as husband to his wife. He promised he will. I also told him about my sister - he is afraid too. I told him I’d look for her. I just really need to see her to get it over with.
- I pray more often these days & I sleep less. I guess it’s because I care too much. Caring hurts & it’s disturbing. It is consuming.
- I pray more often these days & I sleep less. I guess it’s also because I doubt that there’s any more fight left in me.
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